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A review of my 2025 resolutions

Me and Alison sat at a bar looking at the camera — Me and Alison earlier this year

Well I did say in 2024…

This year has been full of ups and downs, its a year I’m not going to forget.

2025 likely took on the challenge and hit it out the park. Talking of highs and peaks something big happened in 2025.

2025 was a struggle emotionally and practically while I faced for the first time my position being made redundancy, Last time at this time of the year, I was told the week before it was happening for sure. I then needed to pull myself together and plan for my uncertain future. Regardless I went ahead with my almost 3 months of paid holiday, had 5 different redundancy parties (why not?) and planned for what next.

Next included a heck load of travel! I visited Bristol, Lancaster, Amsterdam, Henden Bridge, Liverpool, Birmingham, Bath, Buxton, Harderwjik, Berlin, Newcastle, Gateshead, Sheffield, Barcelona, Helsinki, Espoo, Portishead, Arnhem, Nijmegen, Zwolle, Weston Super Mare, Bordeaux, Toulouse, Saint-Emillion, Berlin, Utrecht, Rotterdam, Gzira, Silema, Brussels, Breman, Soltau, Hoofddorp, Huddlesfield, Newport and London; this year.

Sadly I spent a lot of it on planes, my carbon foot print wasn’t good (a total of 14 trips on planes, mainly on KLM via Amsterdam). HS2 to Manchester, therefore to Europe is a but a distant dream, for now?

Sleep has taken a bit of dip again, likely due to the stress of redundancy and setting up a limited business. From average of 6.8 hours to 6.5 hours.

My Trakt time says, I watched way too much drama, and watched 161 movies, and 454 shows.

So what about my 2025 resolutions?

Find a new position of employment
Last week was the week last year when I received the official letter that my position in BBC R&D was being made redundant. The word was out and I looked at my options, picked up a few of the projects I had in mind forlosi personal and work.
I’m working part time for New_Public on their open source plans for the Public Service Incubator, its great working with them and the 6 other public service broadcasters (most I knew already)
In between I am doing bits of work here and there including lectures & talks. The other projects I’m working on is digital legacy via the machine readable wishes and the online dating manifesto.
The most stressful part is running a limited company, I feel like I jumped into deep end of freelancing as it took forever to get setup and feel like I wasn’t prepared for the huge change but hope next year will be more settled.
Finish my dating book
While all the massive amount of changes, I also spent quite a bit of time working on the dating book. I even gave a sneak peak of the cover during the publicspaces conference in June (if you were there during lunch). The struggles of the book name, subtitle, cover, etc has been covered. The stake to publicly release before Hannah finishes her PhD is pretty much been won, as the final cut is Hannah now.
I have made one last decision on the self publishing side. I’m going to spend part of the festive period and January going through the writers and publishers book to give it one more try before going the self publishing route for sure.
Head even further a field with the scooter
This didn’t happen, I had the opportunity to head to the Netherlands via the scooter but the costs of getting across channel to Europe was too high at the time (I was being careful with money having no solid income at the time). Another one for next year?
Learn to drive a car
As my partner keeps reminding me, driving a car would be really useful. However although I had more time as such (although job searching is super stressful and requires a lot of time) I had far less funds and wasn’t high on my list. Who knows maybe it might happen next year but unlikely.
Listen to 25 Audiobooks in the year
Currently I am on a train listening to audiobook number 27 (Cooked a natural history of transformation by Michael Pollan). So I have pretty much blazed through the 25 and thats with my old spa closing down and the lack of regular audiobook time.
Go to a new country
Yes I went to Malta surprisingly, with my partner. Not really a place I planned to visit but who knows maybe I’ll pop back one day in the future? This year my carbon footprint has not been good, with a 14 trips mainly via Amsterdam. I wish HS2 was happening up to Manchester because I would have happily got trains.
Go to a new Rollercoaster park
Yes marked off, I ended up going to Heide park near Hamburg, which is owned by Merlin (same as Alton Towers and Thorpe Park in the UK). Two rides of note are Flug der Dämonen and Colossos – Kampf der Giganten (I only got 2 rides before a film crew took it over for the rest of the afternoon.
See more of my friends further a field
This started to happen, there are quite a few I haven’t seen in ages but a lesson for me is to be better at planning a head
Personal knowledge management and task rethink
I started using Vikunji for tasks and Anytype for longer notes. Its working but I’m having issues with Vikunja flatpak as a client currently (think its a flatpak issue), the CALDav support does work but I find it iffy when using another CALDav client on Android and Linux. I’m going to try self-hosting it again.
Anytype is good but I find some of the ways things work a bit strange. For example trying to invoke a type on the Android app is more painful than it should be. Even creating bullets is more pain than it should be. I was also lead to believe the collaboration options didn’t need the full app to work, like it would create a web version if shared. This isn’t true from what I can see and from my tests.
Be more active about my personal health
Some good news on this front. I had a coach for a short while and he suggested I was doing everything right but I should do some weights to move things around my body. So I gave it a try and its happening. Then my spa shutdown but after a lot of hassle I found an alternative (Nuttfield heath) which works.
Generally I’m about the same weight but my clothes are dropping in size, meaning things are moving to the right parts of my body.
I’m also leaning more about what it means to be older and using my quantified self approach to full understand certainly aspects of what is happening. Of course I’m seeking professional advice from NHS doctors too.
Create a new social event
I thought a lot about this one but I just didn’t have the energy and time. Had a lot of thoughts and maybe I should look through the notes soon .
Do my bit for others in the community
This didn’t happen but something weird happened. A couple of friends who are mothers, got in touch over the year because their sons have gone through university and struggling to find their way into the tech industry. Long story short, I have been doing my bit by working together loosely Its not what I was originally thinking but life takes you to different places if you let it..

Some news about me and my wonderful partner, Alison

Me and Alison sat at a bar looking at the camers

I have some news to share and have been sharing it slowly when meeting people since Summer. After 3.5 years of being together, you can guess me and Alison are now engaged! It was Alison who proposed to me, which is a thing as it runs in the family, with her mum and grandma proposing to their partners too.

We recently changed our relationship status on Facebook, but I don’t think Facebook should have a monopoly on this, so here is a short blog post.

This is a solid commitment to each other. Especially as a lot has happened recently with my family, my position being made redundant and starting my own business.

We plan to have a long engagement as we would like to live together before officially getting married. Ultimately we are committed to each other and would like people to know how we feel.

Bannatyne Gym/Spa shuts down in Manchester

A man spoke to me in the Bannatyne, Withworth street Steam room. I adjusted my headphones and announced I can’t hear him, as I’m listening to an audiobook. He kept speaking and I paused Emergent Strategy by adrienne maree brown. Turning to him, as he was the only one in the steam room, which was admittedly strange for peak-time.

The man says, what are you going to do when the gym shuts down?

I was shocked, what do you mean? This weekend it will close for good. This is the moment I found out the last Bannatyne will close for good and my weekly spa time with it. I confirmed this with the staff, as I left for the last time, not only to get clarity but to find out when I’ll be getting a refund for my yearly payment (which I now have). I was told the nearest Bannatyne gyms are Blackpool (55miles) and Buxton (27miles) now.

The thing which got me is how over August Bannatyne sent 12 emails about their new app in August but zero about the closure of the last Manchester gym.

It’s laughable how this has all turned out and so quickly! At once point there was 3 different Bannatyne’s in Manchester then with the last 3 years they have shut down.

The main reason I blog about this is because I’m looking (Lazyweb) for a Spa/Gym which is based in Manchester city centre. It must have a steam room, sauna and a way to cool down (cold shower, Jacuzzi, etc) following this a weight room. Currently I’m using Kontrast for my sauna but with steam room and zero weights its a stop gap (although I do like the late night weekends).

Honestly, I’m open to suggestions because I see many gyms and a few Saunas but very few which have all three without a seriously huge cost. I would even consider having different subscriptions if cost effective. I’m currently looking at Nuffield and others

They would be a great time, when all those Manchester spas/gyms would see this and get in touch with there best options.

Blog changes and self-hosting

You may have noticed cubicgarden.com has gone through a bit of change since I left BBC R&D. After setting up a Cubicgarden ltd, I quickly made some changes. One of them, is a quick page before you see this blog.

However I have finally got my Yunohost setup working thanks in a small part to Gemini, which filtered my queries down to something more understandable (It was a combination of a Yunohost bug which was fixed in the latest update, SD cards wear and reinstalling and DNS problems)

However, I now have moved things around to different domains.

We now have…

Cubicgarden.com = My personal blog
Cubicgarden.uk = My business site – Needs work
Cubicgarden.info = My mixgarden/Dj site – Still need to upload my many mixes, anyone know how to add the ability to subscribe and copy a channel with yunohost peertube?
Datingmanifesto.cc = The online dating manifesto – Still needs work and I need to move from Github to Codeberg too.

Expect more changes soon

Motorcycling lane filtering is a must!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MRXIA-BwgK0

Filtering on a motorcycle is a must. I can’t even imagine not filtering to the front of the queue at traffic lights. The video above pretty much confirms all the things most motorcyclist know.

Passing on the side where cyclists usually are is certainly a death trap but I do see some motorcyclists in the UK do it. Although I do find it annoying when most car drivers don’t understand the rules around bus lanes (they usually have times of use on them, which makes it a normal lane most of the time).

I was shocked most of America and Canada makes filtering illegal.

It would be really interesting if Google maps had a motorcycle mode, especially in some cities like Bristol and London, where some bus lanes allow motorcycles and it can be a massive time saver. Frankly Google maps is always wrong with travel time for me on my scooter.

My sourdough baking experiments so far…

Home made sourdough on a breadboard with a slice on its side — Bread number 3 with the instagram filter – Yum!

Don’t worry I am not going to start posting about baking sourdough… This is mainly some people were asking and offering tips and even starters. Thanks but honestly I think I’m doing alright so far…

I said a few posts ago, one of the things I have been up to is trying to bake sourdough bread. Baking isn’t my thing as I’m more of a person who doesn’t follow recipes and measure things. I even had a new years resolution to bake a cake a while ago. A few people offered a number of pointers and helpful links. But I have just gone off and done it with a sourdough starter from my old friend Paul.

So far its been quite something…

Home made Sourdough bread on a breadboard sliced in half — Attempt one

Here is my very first one, it was pretty dry I expect because I didn’t put enough olive oil in it. I also used garlic salt because I didn’t actually have standard sea salt believe it or not. I was quite impressed it actually turned out in a form I could eat. It was great with large junks of cheese.

I hated using my hands to fold the uncooked bread and I made the mistake of not having cornflower, which meant it stuck to my hands like clay.

Home made Sourdough bread on a breadboard sliced with a knife — Attempt two

The second one, I fixed the problem of olive oil and sea salt. I also added more Rye flower to the mix (2/5’s instead of 1/5). This loaf was really good and even my partner enjoyed it toasted with her Vegan butter.

I of course got cornflower too, to stop the clay like sticking.

Home made Sourdough bread on a breadboard with slice cut — Attempt three

Number three was amazing. With all knowledge of number two but I skipped a step when folding it, by accident. It made clear to me how I didn’t need to follow a set recipe to the letter, as I messed with the weights and percentage of white and rye flower again. As you can see it was closer to 50/50.

Home made Sourdough bread fresh out the oven in a cooking bowl — Attempt four

Number four with seeds got a bit too big as I wanted to see if I could use more sourdough starter. My measurements were pretty loose but I haven’t tasted it yet. It was pretty wet and I was thinking I should add more flower to dry it out. I haven’t tried it yet but now I finished number 3, I’ll give it a taste tomorrow.

Between 3 and 4, I was worried the sourdough starter would be a pain especially as I was out of the country quite a bit during summer and conference seasons. Now I have quite a bit of sourdough starter, hence why I tried to create a bigger loaf on attempt number 4.

Generally, I’m thinking maybe I should have done this much earlier (during the pandemic is when a lot of people picked it up) but its slight easier as I work mainly from home running the business now. I haven’t bought any Pollen sourdough for a while now.

An update on where I have been recently (post R&D)

Ian and Alison in a hotel bar — My loving supportive partner Alison while Japanese whiskey tasting

Its been around 4 months since I officially left BBC R&D. Its been a while since I did a catch up of where I am and a lot has happened.

First of all I have setup a limited company, one of the main reasons is to seriously pursue how to build the public space as an viable alternative to commercial and government space.

A large part of this is working with others on the notion of a digital public space. One of the leaders in this space is New_Public and I’m really excited to announce, I am going to be working with them to achieve their open source plans. As most of you know, open source isn’t just about the code but about the community and everything which surrounds it. Hence my time running BBC Backstage, is certainly useful.

On the digital legacy front following on from the Republica panel discussion with Identity 2.0 and Linn. I have been thinking about the letter of wishes and how it could actually work in line with HDI (human data interaction) and public values? Its actually something I felt a public service company like the BBC could transform, as it screams public value but it wasn’t to be.

To this I entered my thoughts into a call for participation with the Mydata conference and happy to say they really liked it as a workshop. Which means in September, I will host a workshop around the notion of a machine readable letter of wishes. I am hopefully going to be joined by a fellow digital legacy collaborator but prepared to run it alone.
Been seriously thinking about how to make this real and a standard format seems the best way to go. What software/services which can read and execute this fungible document, is something for others; but a prototype is perfectly possible. Even if it scratches my own itch, it could also help me play/learn with some of the new declarative (React, Vue.js, Xproc) or even object-originated programming languages/frameworks (Rust).

In a similar space, of me rethinking what a public service company could do to be more relevant in the age of endless scroll, enshittification and a loneliness epidemic; as touched on in the future of social report recently.

I have had an enduring eye on matching and dating with true public value. There is so much I have written about it over time and even have a very long bookmark feed of interesting points.

With all this, I have been writing my own book about this all and pretty much finished. Can I also say how amazing Librewrite has gotten for editing complex books like this…

In the last few months I submitted my book to Conduit Books and signed up to a course by Kenyon author services. Mainly to rethink how I proactively encourage people to buy the book or at least read it. Considered going through the publishers and agent book again but I just don’t have the time, plus I have a plan of action which includes a online dating manifesto, potential podcast and maybe a potential dating service which clings to public values and the HDI principles mentioned before. Some of this might come sooner than expected, as I actually mentioned the dating manifesto (borrowed heavily from Julia) and even showed the cover & title (tbc) to my book at the PublicSpaces conference, during the lunch break.

The manifesto which will be collaborative, will feature at the end of the book and is something Mydata is interested in because its very related to HDI and use of data. I did put it in as a session but it may work better as a short workshop. Watch this space…

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I have had a long relationship with Mozilla via the festival (Mozfest), which this year goes global in Barcelona in November. Unfortunately the call for participation has closed and the wrangling part has started. The spacewrangler role is very important, as we are the face and hearts of the festival. One thing which concerned the spacewranglers was the price of the tickets compared to 2019 ticket prices in London. Yes that was a while ago ,a lot has happened including a pandemic and global inflation. However the wranglers have pushed back on the Mozilla foundation. Mozilla have listened and replied with a number of changes including community badges which are a similar price to the ones in London in 2019!

Lets be honest this is a deal, especially with all the challenges Mozilla is facing right now. I would grab your community ticket for €45 now and join us as we write the internet’s next chapter.

Running a limited business comes with a bunch of administrative challenges including accounting. Originally I thought I could use something open and self host it but, the realisation that no accountant will use it and even if I transfer it to something like Xero, Freeagent or Quickbooks. They would need to run through the whole thing again. So I am using Quickbooks for now and seeking a good accountant which isn’t too expensive, can deal with international clients (I have spent far too much time trying to understand and fill in the W-8BEN-E form) and manage my lack of interest in taxes. The notion of a portfolio career keeps coming up, but its really not me… However I do generally have quite a few projects going on at once. This post is testament to this.

In the meanwhile, I have been travelling a lot, my carbon footprint isn’t great but I did recently go to southern France. Somewhere re-reading my school report I wanted to live. Crazy eh?

In the background, I have made a lot of changes to my self hosting setup. I still need to fix quite a few things including my Yunohost Pi server which was broken due to the Debian bookworm update. I decided my mixgarden should just be a Peertube instance which makes a lot of sense. I certainly need to sort out my docker setup because that would make things so much easier. In the meanwhile I have finally settled on Anytype for my personal knowledge store and Vikunja for tasks and kambam. My Framework laptop is going well, especially with a 64gig of memory now, however Ubuntu is doing strange things with the keyboard while using Wayland.
Considering blogging more and setting up separate spaces for the publicservice internet notes, business stuff (which I really need to sort out) and a few other things.

Another strange thing, I just started is baking my own Sourdough bread. Its early days but will attempt my first loaf tomorrow. Yes I know its years after everyone was doing it during the pandemic but hopefully I’ll get into it.

There is so much more but not for public blogging right now. I’m still seeing friends when ever possible, mainly in the UK but when I’m out of the country, catching up with international friends.

I’m very fortunate to have a loving, caring and understanding partner, who is helping me through all this insane amount of change.

I’m joining the Fediforum as an advisor

Really happy to be part of an great advisory team for Fediforum and ultimately for the Future of the Fediverse.

https://fediforum.org/people/

My last day in BBC R&D

A couple of cards one with a luck cat and good luck written on it

Its the final day of my position at BBC R&D and I had a really good first leaving party yesterday.

This a day I have prepared for and didn’t really think would come, but over the last 7 months realised will come. It has been made slightly easier by the 4 different leaving dos I planned (2 in Manchester and 2 in London, drinks and dinners).

Its been great catching up with many different people, old faces and current faces. Its clear to me, I have really moved on and although that doesn’t distract from the difficulty of many layoffs in the BBC. I’m very aware so many people have been affected and

My focus is on my future and what I am doing next, I even finally set my linkedin as #opentowork. While in London for the weekend, seeing the R&D’s lighthouse (White City, W12), talking deeply with the security guards for a long while and chatting yesterday. It hit me, all the back and forth, leadership coaching, talks with friends, etc has got put me in a good place. I have made peace with everything and potentially this is great for difficult times ahead.

Quoting John Lennon…

Life is what happens when we are busy doing other things. Peace is not something you wish for; it’s something you make, something you do, something you are and something you give away.

Facing redundancy with a list of tasks

I wrote a blog post about how I have been since August 2024, when I first learned my position at BBC R&D was at risk and likely to close. Now its March and a lot has happened…

My position is still going to close and I have taken redundancy, which means I will leave at the end of March 2025. I had a stupid amount of leave to take and spend most of my time off. When I put in for the holidays it felt like a long time away but its come super quickly, along with my leaving date.

My huge task list for planning things out is still in action but with a lot of adjustments. I didn’t really account for the heavy amount of what I will call general zuck and how it zaps time away. Either way, I have done quite a bit.

Some things I have been up to.

I spoke at the first united artist AI social club which was good, yesterday talked about social media and digital legacy at the Children’s Media foundation coffee chat and have agreement to do some lecturing later in the year. I can’t say yet but I will become an adviser for a special EU project and will be a large part of a major festival later this year. There might be a second one with a very good friend, which I’m also keeping tight lipped about (fingers crossed on that one). Theres also a very related author who I’m in touch with who could really make this all have huge impact.

I have been working up some of my side projects including DJ hackday and the Adaptive podcasting applied to music is gaining some traction.
The dating book I mentioned previously is super close to being finished with feedback taken on board and the understanding the first edition is always going to be bad and have a ton of errors you can fix in the second and third editions. The book will include something special to keep the conversation going. I finally setup Gitea to finally deal with all the versioning as it was getting out of hand! I also stuck a bunch of my other markdown projects into it too including my Markdown CV, Markwhen, etc. On the digital legacy front, I have news but I’ll share that soon as things are announced.

Part of the redundancy from the BBC includes outplacement options once I’m officially given my formal notice. I was filling my limited spare time over the festival holidays with my family, seeing friends, writing my CV’s, life after layoff and Linkedin learning till I learned I will still have linkedin learning after I leave with the BBC outplacement service.
There is something I wouldn’t have access to a small amount of formal training funding, so looked into my options. I considered my declarative, linked data and semantic web background; considered my design background and even project management. However it became clear what would really help is coaching, as I had some incredible coaching after my brush with death. This was going to be very expensive and heavy going but I made it happen with help from my line manager, BBC HR and access to work being dyslexic. I was able to get leadership coaching over the last month. Unfortunately its only available while I still working for the BBC and that has means some long intense sessions every week and homework. Its been excellent and very glad I could make it happen right at the end of my BBC employment. Certainly best use of my time at this moment…This and going on holiday to Malta with my partner.

Ian and my partner in Malta with the sunset behind them — Myself and my partner in Malta

As I am just shy of 21 years at the BBC (weeks shy) I am never going quietly (into the night) and have setup 4 different events for my leaving. 2 in London and 2 in Manchester. Each city has a general drinks/snacks, then a smaller sit down meal. I know it seems over the top but as its close to my birthday too, so its a double reason to celebrate.
You could say why are you arranging your own leaving party’s?
But honestly with the amount of people leaving BBC R&D and different people with different plans, some to leave quietly some less so. Its just easier on everyone to arrange it myself (of course with help from colleges who are not leaving of course).

If you didn’t get the invite, let me know via email or the fediverse. Its been hard to remember who to send this all to…

A key part I have been doing is sorting out how I manage this all, because although tasks lists are ok this just don’t work for me as a long term sustainable solution. I do love Kanban’s (as I call it kambams) and used Trello in the past a lot. Then I switched to Microsoft planner at work which was awful but just about usable. Combined with the need have self control over this all… I started looking at self-hosting Planka on Yunohost. (Bearing in mind, I have been looking into knowledge management systems for awhile.

My old Dell XPS 12 with a lot of stickers on the lid — I attempted to put Yunohost on my old Dell XPS 12. Those stickers are a trip through history

I have enjoyed Yunohost and bought a cheap Intel NUC PC on ebay for this and other applications I want to host them using docker but they were tricky on my Qnap NAS. I also do have Yunohost on a Raspberry PI 5 but I realised some apps need a AMD64 environment and with a always on VPN I can run and use them anywhere? I also looked at Wekan and keep trying to get Vikunja working.

But back to where I am…

The biggest issue right now is prioritising what I do, how much I setup now and redo after my leaving date. There are things like buying a new laptop I had to do and have decided to not include any work related stuff on to including Microsoft Edge, One drive syncing and Slack (although I do use slack for other communities so that will change). I have my PAC code for my work phone, so I can move that number soon enough.
I had planned to drive around on the scooter and see friends but the weather in the UK has been bad for riding and frankly its something I can do after April.

That’s where I am right now…

Focus on leadership coaching, finish up work (future of social report), write some recommendations for BBC R&D, a intriguing final email (maybe also in audio), lean in on the different opportunities from my network, have a great time at the leaving parties for March/April. Finally I should switch my Linkedin to open to work maybe?

I do plan to take a break straight afterwards for my birthday and the Easter holidays. Then I’m back and will be in touch with many of you, as the scooter is ready to go.

Yes I am looking at where to go next but I’m carefully looking at options, rather than jumping to the next place. I am very aware there are a lot people being made redundant, its rough out there. I can only rely on my network and unique skills to find my next steps.